Wow, I can’t believe it’s only been nine days since my last update…so much has happened since then. I started work last Monday, and I love my job. Somehow the days don’t drag at all, even though I work nine hour shifts every week day. It’s such a relief to have a full-time job where I work the same hours every day, and don’t have to worry about what my schedule will look like in the coming weeks, as it was at Borders and Silbermann’s. It’s hard to believe camp only lasts for seven weeks…hopefully it won’t go by too quickly, because I’m having a great time with the kids and the other councellors. It doesn’t feel like work at all.
Last Saturday Nathan came home from Las Vegas, and we decided to date each other exclusively. Since that time things moved so quickly; the following week was insane with work and staying up so late to see each other, but every single day I showed up to work exhausted, running on only four or five hours of sleep, was entirely worth it.
Last night we all went to see A Hard Day’s Night projected onto the front of the Rafael theatre downtown, and afterwards went to the water park in Terra Linda to look at stars and bats. Nathan drove me home, and in the parking lot of the school, as I struggled to find the words or courage to say how I felt, he told me he loved me. We agree that being in love is the scariest right now, but it still feels incredible – hearing him say it sends a thrill of love and fear through me that starts at the tops of my ears and ends in my knees. Somehow, “I’m in love” feels so foreign to say (perhaps because of what happened in my last relationship, or because things with Nathan happened so quickly) but am I ever. I’m in love, I’m in love, I’m reeling, I’m in love.